Thursday, July 5, 2018

Short trip

Looking back to those years where I was a lot younger and care free girl.
I miss that moment so much. Travelling with my girls, laugh, eat and making silly jokes, teasing at each other.

How i wish I can repeat all of that.
How i wish I can hug all of you girls.

We were broke when we were at Univ, but that doesn't make us unhappy and stopping us from having fun.

I hope all of you are doing fine and your family as well. Hope to see u guys soon! 🌸

❤Teratak Usang❤

Friday, May 25, 2018

What a sad life.

So, sad people write.

Im a sad person now.
Im sad that i cant speak out.
Im sad that i cant make them realize how unjustice they are.
Im sad that i cant change their double standard system.
Im sad that i failed to remind them that they were us too before.
Im sad that i cant voice out my right.

Like what my superior told me before, you are just an insignificance creature in front of your bosses. You mean nothing and no one bother.

Going to leave this cruel world asap. And hoping a greener site. I wish.

But come to think about it. Oh well come on.. Other people had it worst. Please dont make a fuss about those lil things. Such a kid. 

Saturday, January 20, 2018

Unexpected

Unexpected things happen. Many of them. Like right now.

It is another year babe. 2018!
Another 2 years to go for 2020 (wawasan 2020)

I cant believe that we are almost married for a year.

And im entering my 3rd posting soon.

And now we are hoping for another miracle thing to happen.

Alhamdulillah for every chance that Allah give in life.

Im loving my life and rocking my housemanship.

Such a sad thing to leave medical posting. 😢 Me sad.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Ironi

Hidup penuh dengan ironi.

Contoh nya di sepanjang aku posting di O+G, hampir setiap hari aku akan jerit kepada patient yang sedang bertarung nyawa untuk bersalin,

"puan! Teran puan! Push kuat kuat. Semangat sikit!."

Then mostly patient akan reply,

"tak boleh doktor. Saya tak larat dah.. Tak boleh doktor"

Restlessly saying while the baby head is already at the perinuem.

"puan! Tak boleh macam ni. Puan kena kuat semangat. Puan boleh!! "

And the echoes unconsciously floating in my head.

Ironi nya, hari hari aku balik hostel yang kusam tu dengan perasaan sebagai seorang loser.  Hari hari aku rasa nak berhenti kerja. Hari hari aku rasa aku tak layak kerja yang so called murni ni.

Hari hari aku rasa.......

Life.

Sad things does happen.
Yes it do.

Like when the whole day you work hard, (you think you were)
But, without any mercy
You were labelled as useless.

Your sharp tongue does kill my heart.
Fly me back to the bitter days

Where i cried after fail to deflate Foley's catheter balloon for cbd during first year ospe

Or

The day i dissapoint myself after failed intubation during osce 4th year

Or

The day i felt sorry for myself after failed to answer fammed 5th year osce question

Thank you for bringing me for a short bitter vacay dude